I guess I am “lagging” one more time between yesterday and tomorrow, is that familiar feeling of having lost a life and getting ready for the next one. Being in limbo must feel the way I feel right now… I wonder if limbo is a purgatory. I feel certainly cleansed but not so just yet.
“I will miss you” he said, and my heart lost a heartbeat, I wanted to say the same and just hug him but I played the role I must and I told him how happy I was for his future life, for all that was coming. My heart is breaking piece by piece, but his smile is my greatest gift, is what will keep me going for as long as I can. How can I know how life will be two weeks from now with this feeling of not having a life to live yet, with this yearning of something that I don’t even know if it exists or not.
I am no more…