Probably the second is more accurate and safer to say, and leaves a little bit of that most needed doubt in case...

I woke up alone this morning and it felt lonely, and what I wanted to write about was put on hold just because of that...

Perhaps it's me and a few, although I am told it's us and the most, that have always found a good reason to stay away...

At least I can drink some coffee... it will be a long day, I wish I could keep you company. I wish it wasn't that...